Thank you google

You have answered my prayers, by adding all these new tools I can now make this blog more like my readers want.. Hopefully no more walls of words, I may start going back and correcting some of the old posts with all of these new incredible tools.  Thank you! You guys have answered my prayers.

Education system its a new century

How often do we continue using the technology hundreds of years old? Do we continue living life as if we lived in the industrial age? Yet we continue to use an education paradigm which is horribly out of date, and tragically ill-equipped for the information age. Standing on the cusp of the next technological era, how Ill-prepared we are for the future, much less the world we live in now. We need to learn better adaptability to the rapid changes, and learn to change and make modern that which is failing our children. We can't flee into the dark ages, that's a reactionary response to fear of the unknown.

It's time to change and move forward upwards and outwards as well as inwards, just my thoughts.

1 soda a day = 15lbs

Just drinking one soda a day will add 15 pounds to your waistlines every year, minimum.

So drink diet right? No. One, diet sodas have in them a chemical which was originally used as a medication for constipation, ergo the usage of diet soda causes diarrhea and other GI issues. Two, this drug is used as a super taster, if diet or sugar free foods are nauseously bitter your a super taster. Off topic but squirt some blue food coloring onto your tongue, if it sticks and colors your taste buds your a super taster. There are also few tests of these substitutes over long term usage. Rogaine the hair loss medication was originally a blood pressure topical medication, people using this over the counter medication are not told use of these products can cause massive drops or rise in blood pressure which can send you into a coma or cause embolisms leading to heart attack or stroke. Just some thoughts on why we need more transparency in every field.

Sorry for my continuing absence

My wonderful other half has been sick, she has a tendency for tonsil abbesses , so I've been taking care of her, I have a dozen posts I'm looking forward to finishing, I'll get them up as soon as possible, with everything going on and having been invited to ANL in Illinois there's just a lot going on. The health of my other half comes first so I need to be here for her, especially as I might have been the one who got her sick, guess its possible I might have had the nasty flu going around instead of food poisoning.

I will be posting all the drafts, I promise, real life just comes first, and there's been a lot going on, in business housing, family and friends lives. I've gotten permission to continue the blog project into the fall session, and I might add it to a research feature of my thesis, so thanks again, I'll be catching you up on everything as soon as life slows down enough. Thanks for your patience.

Guest Bloggers

I read recently about guest posters, I really like this idea, if your a reader here and would like to share your thoughts, poetry, stories, art. Anything at all please contact me, I have a few people in mind I'd like to hear from. I'm
sure what you have to say would be enjoyed. You can post anon or under a post name, I'd just rather you didn't use your real name.

So guest posters out there email me your post and I'll post it up for you to share for a nominal posting fee, lol, j/l but really give it some thought, I'm looking forward to hear from you.

Insurance, employer or church

Who gets to decide? When did the doctor who went to school for. Exactly this, stop being able to decide what your medical needs were? It seems to me the last person who should be deciding what treatments you need it should be your insurance or your employer or your church. The treatment you need should be based upon your decisions made with the input of your doctor or doctors. I don't want to pick on members of religious groups to make that choice to use birth control that's a personal choice but when you behave like a hypocrite and you are using those birth control tools and stating it's for a different reason then what's the difference between that and saying I'm using medical marijuana for pain and you saying that I'm just a pothead? ( I'm not actually a pothead nor do I smoke pot), I'm pro legalizing it, but honestly I take enough meds without adding issues.

For that matter what if pot, was better for me, managed my pain, stopped my muscle spasms, and was not nearly as addictive or had the side effects of the other medications I'm taking? Why would it be wrong? It seems to me like it would be the healthiest option? And I live in the state of California where we have passed; in fact we were the first state to pass the medical marijuana act and yet the federal government seems to believe that they have the right to decide on this issue that they're the ones to get to make the decision. I'm really curious as to how about that works so please look at my post on the Fed versus the state because I will be talking about that shortly. Anyway wonks story short my question remains do I want my insurance company my employer on my church deciding what medical treatments I need or are allowed when that really should be a question only answerable by myself and my doctor and the laws of the land. What yeah we had somebody become the president who is a member of the Church of science who believed that sickness was a judgment by God and banned all medical assistance how would we react to that question. I mean you have to ask that.

Anyway just some quick thoughts some questions maybe something to think about and we can talk about it later tomorrow when I have a chance to really get into this subject on my next post thanks be well I hope you're enjoying reading all of this

My sincerest apologies

Yesterday I was on the phone with my mother, who hopefully won't mind if I comment. Over the years we've had our struggles, and were estranged for quite a few years because of my issues.

It's taken a lot of change and growing on my part, but I'm glad to say I can talk to her for hours and not realize how much time has passed. That would not have happened a decade ago.

Today my other half was off, and I sole to my nana(that's grandmother to y'all), today, she's nearing her 90's, (her words), so I do apologize for failing to post, I do have four posts ready to be typed.

Thinking about polygamy, state versus federal laws, and a few other things I'll type up tommorow to share, until then be well and I look forward to sharing my thoughts, stories, and art with you.

Polyamoury vs Poligamy

In this world of polarization I find myself asking if same-sex marriage is ok, what's the problem with Polygamy? It seems that if two or more adults can choose to live and love together, commonly referred to as polyamory. If cheating on your spouse is legal and open relationships are ok, in fact I recently read about objectemphilia or something with people who are in love with cars, buildings, even the Berlin wall.

How can we the people allow something to be legalized and validated while others remain stigmatized. If your dealing with adults who are making informed decisions which don't harm anyone else why do we get a say what they do in thier own homes? I wouldn't want to be judged on what I think, say, and do in my own home, I'm sorta human. Should I be judged on what books I read, movies I watch, or music I listen to? I hope not, those are choices.

I've said before if your familiar with that show sister wives where a member of the FDLS church took his family of four wives and nearly twenty children on TLC. They wanted to show polygamy in it's truth not that image many of us have of forced marriages to twelve year old girls.

Towards the end of season one they flee Utah because of their fear of prosecution. Instead of taking it to court and fighting for what is their religious belief and practice they fled to Los Vegas instead of standing up for thier beliefs.

Granted I don't have kids to worry about being taken away yet. (though I do live in a world where I'm afraid to change my kids because I believe my in-laws would use anything to get me put in prison, right or wrong), maybe I'd run to if I had to risk loosing my children, in which case I wouldn't have done the show in the first place.

Even if that show is based on the narcissism, ego, vanity and out of control arrogance, where in any person
with the smallest psych training can see he controls every aspect of that family, regardless if the impression they are seeking to portray. It doesn't change the fact that if multiple adults, same sex couples deserve to get married. Why can I get married now? What would change if she was a man? We tell our kids it's not what's on the outside until they come home with someone you don't agree with. I'm hoping I got my point across, if it's what's on the inside who cares what's hanging between the persons legs. One day each of us may be surprised when we fall in love for the first time, and shocker they have the same gear you do.

What if thier married, put thier honest and you find you love thier spouse too? Fine, just fine as long as you don't want to formalize that relationship, love is illegal.

When did anyone get to make love, or who you spend your life with legal or not? Who decided the church or the government gets to decide such a personal choice! These decisions should remain between myself, my life partners, and my god, whatever form that godhead takes.

Thanks for listening, I'm off the soapbox for a moment.

Legalize marijuana

It's time to take the cuffs off of Mary Jane, it was made illegal for racist and monopolist reasons.

As long as alcohol and tobacco is legal and taxable there is no reason usable to enforce any ban, and the stigma is even more ludicrous. We don't stigmatize alcoholics, we call them. Connoisseurs.

Really you can't overdose on it, most doctors will tell you they deal with more health issues from the other two drugs. This statement that it's addictive is childish, guess the other two have neither addictive potential or withdrawal.

Yes, withdrawal.... Pot withdrawal has never killed anyone, one out of ten alchoholics die during treatment.

How about the fed saying its up to the state to decide, up until we decide wrong? Then they want to threaten all manner of nastiness until we agree with them. So who is deciding again?

The fed just doesn't want to look like the bad guy saying no, so they pretend to leave it to the state like all the touchy subjects. Then come down like a hammer when we the PEOPLE vote our choice.

Clearly they don't care about what we think so what would happen if people started acting like the fed or big corparations and just did what we wanted? Oh yeah prison!

Where are the founding fathers when you need them, maybe Guy Fawkes will help us.

More on Reality TV

This week has been crazy, you have a guy go nuts on big brother, and try to head smash another houseguest. After he's kicked out of the house, only days later he was arrested for DUI. His brother another reality star from the TV show survivor is arrested for spousal abuse. Two other big brother previous houseguests are arrested for running a prescription drug ring. It's a bit like winning the lottery, you suddenly have this fame/notoriety but you don't know how to use it for anything positive. You're the same person you were before you won all the money, or you're the same person you were before you went into the house or the island, but suddenly everybody knows you. It's not like you're a movie star where you've grown into the thing and know how to handle it.

Okay, maybe not everybody knows how to handle it we've seen more than a few celebrities go down the dark side but what makes you think just because you were on television and you got your 15 minutes of fame you now have this power to get away with doing whatever you want? Worse yet did you believe that you could do anything you wanted before that and now you just have this shield of fame to act within?

Maybe it's not a shield of fame, maybe it's a spotlight of observation that now can out all of your mistakes and misdeeds and none of us would look good under that degree of light. I don't know personally, but to me it seems like that woman who fought legally to get into that military Academy representing all women everywhere only to drop out as soon as things got tough. Do I think it was an easy experience for her? Hell no I think it was terrible, I think it was a horrible experience being the first woman into a military all-male academy, I'm sure most of the guys were absolute gentlemen?

But she made that choice to stand up and represent women everywhere, she should have thought long hard and deeply about the consequences of doing what she was about to do and then one way or another she needed to dig deep and find the strength and prove that women are equal to men and could do anything we can.

So I guess in my opinion you reality TV stars, all of you people who are out there wanting your moment in the sun, don't complain and whine when it turns out that the paparazzi are out for you or people are taking your comments and actually listening to them and making fun of them when they're ridiculous, you went looking for this.

And if you're on a reality TV show and you leave or win and come out of it and act like a jackass don't be surprised when people point out your stupidities, you asked for the situation and you can't be shocked when it turns around and bites you on the backside.

Anyway those are just my thoughts and I'll leave you with them thanks for your time and your patience and listening

Avalon overview

Had a writer friend check out the Avalon story, and got some great advice, so hopefully you'll see some positive changes to improve it.

I don't know if I've mentioned this but I apologize for the lack of paragraphs, I'll try to use line breaks to make it easier to read, but the font, and other things are done using HTML which I don't know.

Anyway hope your enjoying the story so far, I've enjoyed writing it, and look forward to sharing some of the other stories I'm working on.

I'm currently working on editing exile for the blog platform but it's very different.

If this goes well I may introduce my baby, a story I've been working on for the last few years, lol, I'm very jealous of it but if the other stories seem to be being enjoyed I may write it here.

If you'd rather see more journal posts, or things I'm thinking about or looking into for school and work please let me know, this blog really is for your entertainment.

Boot camp chapter 1

The stink was something awful and would cling to my nostrils for days after we got out of this bloody swamp. My feet were wet, but the stars shone in the skies above us reminding us that there was a world out there, somewhere, even if we couldn't get to it, still existed. We moved forward through the swamp trying to keep track of each other in the darkness

Brendan, our company leader, had the compass so we followed him whether we like it or not, whether he knew where we were going or not. Suddenly a call came down the ranks, it's time to bivouac so we pulled out our tents and started making camp.
Now don't take me wrong this is not camp like you might think it is, we were all sitting here because we're what the court calls incorrigible. Most of us here were sent to this survival camp, to learn discipline and be obedient and respect our authority figures. Authority figures, like they deserve our respect.

Most of us had made some mistakes, breaking and entering, fights, drugs, but nothing really major some of us had gang affiliations, some of us just had bad relationships with our parents. This was their solution. Send us out in the middle of nowhere with a bunch of jar headed baboons barking orders in there jackboots. Yeah, if we didn't have a problem with authority before we certainly have one now don't we? We have learned a lot out here though we've learn to count on each other, we've learned that even if we can't trust the adults in the world we can trust each other, we have each others backs no matter what color we are or what religion we practiced. All of that was secondary. You know one day Pitz came up with this really great idea. What if we took what we've learned out of here and brought it back with us? We just bring it back in a but if a way, differently than they expect? You see in many ways they have succeeded, they have taught us discipline, they've taught us to be brothers, they've taught us to trust in each other at least but they failed in some very important areas.

They've proven that we can't trust those in authority. We need to question everything about our lives. You see Pitz was one of those people who had gang connections, grew up in Hells kitchen where everything was blood in, blood out. He figured what if we took what we've learned back out to the street? What if we taught our brothers and sisters in poverty the unity we've learned out here in this stinking miserable swamp? We can actually turn our world around and make it something where we are all equal, we're even with everybody else. What greater sacrifice, what greater price can be paid for that? So that became our enduring plan, the idea of freedom, the idea that in poverty equality is all we've got, those egg heads in the books basically said the same thing and thier heroes man, our founding fathers, and if that came at the point of a gun well wouldn't be the first time, and let's face it the gangs are better armed than the police ever could be and with this military training and discipline we would be unstoppable. There would be no force on this planet that could equal us and were ready to make those sacrifices. We've faced death, seen our friends die. Are you? Have you?

Exile prologue

This archival write-up on object A.E.51, item labeled 075 lab 26 Site N, defines the history of this crystal found at archaeological site AE51, believed to be an alien crash site.

Its inquiry has been handled by geology specialists, analysts, mineralogy, mechanics, engineers, of every sort, even a futurist, as well as several other compartmental departments, see Archive Beta For the complete list.

During a laser infraction test by one of the geologists, a “visitor” friend with I.C.E. level clearances, possessing a linguistic aptitude pointed out an anomaly. Imprinted within the crystal were layers of dots, which when assembled correctly would form the base of a language. The problem he said would be to find the key-stone, or means of activating the device.

After many futile tests the crystal sat useless upon a shelf in a secured storage center for several years, until a young Xeno-linguistic astrophysics student somehow through the freedom of information act discovered its existence. After several months of study he made an intuitive leap that would change the course of our races destiny.

Somehow he matched up the three points of Orion, Arcturus-anteres, and the Sirius star systems as the key points where the light sources aimed from those singular key point would create some image, of what he later confessed did not know, nor do I think he cared.

This being the kind of thinking that makes scientists dangerous in general. In a meeting he revealed his discovery. Setting the crystal on a central dais, while activating a red laser placed at the galactic point of Orion, suddenly the room was covered with prismatic dots, he then placed another red laser in the A./A. spatial point, and when activated created another barrage of dots, though not nearly so shimmering. He placed the last red laser in its point in the spatial loci of Sirius, the Dog Star, and more dots did appear, but it was now almost all blacked out.

“As you can see sirs, the lasers are the trick, it took me a while to understand the configuration”, Laughing to himself, “but it hit me eventually. We are just learning about lasers, but what might this speci have known?” “So I tracked down a blue laser, and placed it in the A.A. Loci, and surprisingly this happened”.

Switching out the red laser and replacing it with the blue was amazing indeed. It was stunning, the dim dots began to merge and morph into something else, brightening, becoming something beautiful yet incomplete.
The specialist continued “as you can see we were getting closer to the solution to the equation”, removing the last red laser and installing a new cutting edge top of the line green laser, “I ‘borrowed’ from the military, and.. 'places people the show is about to begin'”, he chuckled.

The room was absolutely silent as he switched on the green laser, for there before our very eyes shown like some kind of intricate scintillating hologram,
strange shapes and letters, words, morphing in color and texture, layers deep. Truly beautiful and terrible to behold but our young doctor had succeeded in discovering the hidden language deep within the crystal.

He has since made it his mission in life to translate this body of work, whatever it might contain. We have yet to discover if he will uncover the means of operating this device, much less will be able to complete the actual translations. It is unknown at this time if it is a danger to our planet or something as simple as an innocent journal. All translations will continue to be sent on to you at the TOWER for investigation and analysis. When or if it becomes necessary, the translators can disappear at any time.

For now we wait, and prepare for any eventuality as you have directed. This is what has been translated so far. We seem to receive three to five pages a week depending on the complexity of the script, and the capability of the
operator.

There seems to be a component that makes it impossible for some individuals to use the device, nor see anything of meaning in the language, which when functioning at its highest level seems to implant images and feelings, almost complete memories into the operators minds, giving them the impression they had truly been there and experienced the region of text they were exploring.
We have, through extensive testing discerned there is a genetic anomaly within those with the deepest level of control. We feel that we must at once begin testing as many people as possible as widely as possible, and those that have the capacity for top secret clearances re-assigned to this project, those not capable of maintaining clearances should be watched closely. We just do not know what that X factor might mean.

Possibly we should even “draft” those individuals not capable of passing the screenings, and put them to work anyway, just to see the alternate version they may arrive at. The waste of such knowledge as might be gained especially when we have absolute control over where and when they go makes them perfect test subjects to see what the hologram does to different personality types. As per A.E.51 op420 regulations our translators are both working together at all times, they have been armed and “have been warned of their partners oncoming insanity having worked so closely with what could be alien technology” Thus the program itself is in no jeopardy on any front.

Synergistic dating places the age of this crystal as pre-dating the earth or mars. In fact we have found no means of reliably dating it at all.

Being sick, and life

My apologies for my brief posts of late, as you may know I was recently knocked down to my socks.

A few years ago I had swine flu, I wanted to die, a year or two later my gall bladder exploded, I wished I'd die, my fiancé at the time thought I had, this felt so much worse, I'm still recovering, but as I'm beginning to feel better, a little, I'll try to be more on the ball.

I am very much upset that my stats which I try to share don't give me all the information anymore, so some of the countries I was so proud of are now off my stats. Apparently they only give you the top ten, and if it's a tie I guess they use the most recent. Thanks Iceland for visiting hope we see you back.

Please feel free to comment or email me, any input helps me shape the blog better to what you enjoy reading, agian my apologies for misspellings and grammar I am effectively blind so I have to use talk-back if it sounds right I go with it.
Spellcheck is also a pain, I turn it off but it switches on every night when I backup my iPad.
Dragon works best but I can't always see what it's typing so again I rely on the text-to-speech feature until my wife has a chance to proof read things, and she's been busy with work. Thank you again for your patience.

Serenity the movie based on firefly

Here's my problem, and it comes home powerfully as I watch this movie, about hype and new series, lost never answers questions, Alcatraz gets canceled, primeval gets canceled and brought back, heroes and fringe Are to smart so I qute watching expecting them to be canceled, I expected lost to get zapped too for that matter, yet earth 2, and threshold get canceled, now alphas is back, and revolutions looks like a bad blend of the hunger games and the divergent books complete with broken down ferris wheel, if she climbs this I'm going to be ticked, that's a scene out of divergent. Maybe this is two posts I'm mushing together, but here's my problem you get invested after months of hype, only to have a series canceled, I believe every show should be contracted when or ifits canceled to do a made for tv movie to tie up loose ends. I for one would feel a lot safer investing myself in something if I know it's going to have a conclusion.

My Art and how I do it.

It's hard to explain light sculpture, but that's what I do. I take random images and push, mold, and shape pixels, so for those who enjoy my art thank you but it's not like I feel like it takes much skill, it really is just pushing pixels around.
Seeing something inside the entropy, and using filters, and settings to pull something out of the chaos.
It's a fun hobby when I'm bored but writing is by far harder, and real artists who can draw, creating amazing visuals, and artistic anatomy, I wish I had the skill, a mentor once said I use words as colors, and create my own art. Like my MIDI, I'll leave it to the guys who know what thier doing, I'm just playing.

A Knight out on the town

You've been waiting for this moment for a long time, you load the kids into the car, you drive to the movie theater, you get your tickets find your seat, sitdown watch previews and you're preparing to enjoy the final installment of a trilogy, when suddenly teargas and bullet fire starts to ring through the theater? This is just sick to me, such a tragedy. I think of the soldier who chooses to serve his country and ends up being gunned down in a movie theater. Or a family going to watch a movie and nearly everyone ends up being killed including their young daughter. How can this be the world we live in? I really don't know what to say about this. I don't understand it. I keep waiting, asking myself when are they going to tell us why this man did this? Why did somebody let him in through the emergency exit? Then I realized they might not. There might not be an answer to this question. We just live in that kind of world where people are stabbed when they go to a horror movie because somebody wants to become famous. I'm sure part of the problem here is sickness, but I can't help wondering how much of the problem here is that desire for fame or at least notoriety?

To think that if this guy doesn't get the death penalty he's going to get free medical care, three meals a day, a roof over his head for the rest of his life. Things I have no guarantee of ever having. What does that tell people? I think I'm going to stop and leave it there because I'm just truly uncomfortable even discussing this. The death of so many over so little on such a narcissistic media bothers me deeply and as much as it bothers me to hear these television talking heads debate over these tragic events I just don't want to find myself becoming one of them so I'm going to leave you on that note and hopefully in the days ahead will be able to find some answer that will never make up for what happened but at least explain what was going on in this man's head when he set about on the events of that night.

My prayers go out to their families, I can only hope that they can ever get over this and someday see some form of justice come out of thier loss. With this last note love the people around you, tell them, and show them, don't assume they know already, they don't. Most likely your son or daughter, grandchildren, are wondering if they've made you proud, if they're good enough, done enough. When the end can come so quickly don't live in the past or a world of assumptions, let something good come out of this horror, pull your friends and family close, and never let go, then when the names have changed and the story becomes your own you can know they knew, and hopefully find some consolation in that knowledge.

Reality TV

Over-all we've had quite a few years of reality TV going back to MTV's real world probably even going further back than that, and now we live in a world where television is predominately reality television, no trained actors, no story line, no story arc. So what are we watching it for. I think most of us are watching it waiting for the train wreck which inevitably is going to happen at some point. When that person pulls a knife and stabs somebody or some other version of complete and total insanity occurs. Have we had enough years of this reality TV to decide whether it's overall a positive or negative influence, or even something we really want to watch.

With Snooky and the Cardassians(this is what spell check put in and I figure I'm going to leave it I think you all know who I'm talking about and this word seems to fit them just as well as their real name), and the now the Palins and I could go on and on and on repeating more names and more shows based on a thousand other atrocities but is it something we really want to watch ourselves or our children to watch? What are the shows really bringing to the table?

I ask this because recently being sick I've had the opportunity to watch some of the new season of big brother. Now not only do they have big brother on television several nights a week on the regular network, not only do they have the live feeds that you can pay for 24/seven but they also have a three hour slot on Showtime every night that is completely unedited. Now on the network version it's pretty tame they cut out a lot of the troubling stuff. Yet the showtime version being unedited leaves in some pretty morally reprehensible conversation that doesn't really make anybody in the house very likable, if what little I've seen in that three hour slot is part of what goes on when they forget people are watching during the live feeds I'm not sure I'd like any of these people very much. You see they announced to the houseguests when Showtime is about to start and when it's about to end so during that three hours they are fully aware that they are being watched by the Showtime viewers. So they try very hard to be on their best behavior and only say things that won't attract any negative attention. Yet still sometimes some very very nasty things sneak into the conversation.

I know where in the time of recession and nobody has a lot of money but I don't think Hollywood is really hurting for financing and yet they're still choosing this reality format over putting up something that is really a good product and to me it seems like we really should be making a stand in saying we want more, we expect more. We pay a lot of money for satellites, cable, whatever media you happen to get your television in. I've said it in prior posts why is it that the good shows that maybe cost a little more never make it past their first season, or get dumbed down so that they can make it there full length? I'm really tired of seeing some great shows go off the air regardless of the outcry of the people and the fans of those shows without any comment from the people making it. While they slap up another garbage reality show to take its place. Anyway just my thoughts on something that's really not that important with everything else that's going on in the world.

Cosmetic surgery and moral choices

Are you morally obligated to divulge to your significant other that you've had cosmetic surgery. It seems to me that if you gotten into a relationship with somebody and are planning on having children with them it might seem justifiable that you mention that you had cosmetic surgery.

What if you had facial alterations or a chin implant to alter your features and you don't mention it and your children are born with the same feature that you changed, you'd imagine your spouse is going to wonder where this feature came from. At what point does disclosing your personal choice to have cosmetic surgery become the subject of your partner?

Obviously morality and the social contract are of great interest to me. I can't help wondering what, why, where, and how were these decisions made and based on what premises? Morality seems at least in some senses such an open discourse. Predominantly cultural and traditional. The fact that we live in an age where technology is making so many questions of moral implications such a great arena of discussion it becomes an even more relevant avenue of discussion and decisions.

Do governments have the right to monitor our digital communications in their attempts to slow crime or stop terrorism? Is privacy something guaranteed by the Constitution. Do corporations have the right to use us as a commodity because we're using a free service their supply?

Should surgeons do cosmetic surgeries that are unnecessary simply because a person is seeking to create a certain bodily image? Even if while seeking to create that image becomes potentially deadly to the person being operated on? I'm not sure if this question is even appropriate being asked by a man, but what if a woman chooses to have a breast augmentation, and then has a daughter who grows up seeing her mother with large voluptuous breasts and doesn't understand why she doesn't have those same anatomical features. To my knowledge no studies it ever been done on this but from what I have studied about children growing up observing their parents it seems to me it could only be damaging to their own self-image. Just a few thoughts from the Darkside.

Smoking chiefs

My love enjoys almost any cooking competition reality show, so we watch most of the biggies. She lives the top chief series, hells kitchen, you name it.

What confuses me is the smoking. I don't mean a cooking style either. Don't these people understand smoking destroys your palette and kills off your taste buds. So many of them are taking smoke breaks, right before they have a palette challenge.

Don't get me wrong, I don't have an issue with smokers, it's your choice but when it effects your livelihood shouldn't you choose what's going to make you better at your job? This is something I don't understand, does it make any sense or taking pride in my ability to taste I can't imagine doing anything to screw that up, anymore than I'd choose to do something that knowingly screwed up any of my other senses.

Still sick, hope this ends soon

Sorry fellow readers I hope the line breaks make it easier to read, hope you enjoy this last chapter it was the hardest to write yet, but I enjoyed it a lot I hope you take something interesting from it, I had a lot of difficulties writing from the perspective of intertwined thought. Hope to feel better soon, I'll be correcting and reediting a lot of old posts for greater clarity, with my double vision sometimes what I see isn't what's there thanks for your patience, for the record I'm staying clear of Big Brother (series) though I may do a general post on shows like it, until then

Friending in-laws on FB

Oh, how the complexities grow, if I refuse then my wife catches the short end of the stick having to answer why, if I do....

Which of course I did....

Who catches the pointed end agian? The wife of course, so what's the right answer or is there even a right answer to arrive at.

I know most of you are not familiar with the on-going drama with the in-laws unless your a careful reader.

Now I have to consider the ramifications of what I post, and what they post. Based on my honesty policy here I would be disingenuous if I wasn't open about these issues so expect a post on my thoughts on this, needless to say some deep though is needed. I can't help wondering if this was a good idea, sometimes it's better to keep parts of your life separated.

Well see how it turns out.

Beaumont's study, A hole in one

Frankenscience at work, after an outdoorsman is shot, he heals leaving a hole into his stomach, called a fistula, the good dr. uses guilt and manipulation to keep his patient compliant as for the first time he inserts pieces of meat through the hole direct into the poor mans stomach, making detailed notes on how the food breaks down, learning about enzymes and other digestive processes. You see a long standing evolutionary question has been what are humans, preditor, or prey. We are not carnivores, we lack the proper dentition, and our digestive track is to long, meat would normally putrify, before it's expelled poisoning us, our eyes our both facing forward with binocular vision which is predatory, but agian our dentition is designed for a variety of foods. This doctor now has a window seat into digestion, these tortures continue for over ten years, until the patient flees for Canada, after being dragged back once, our good doctor took steps to make sure his patient couldn't flee again so he had him join up for the military so that if he fled again it would be treason, if he fled again he could be put to death.. The good dr published his book becoming the father of GI science, while st. Martins, our patient used the death of his child to flee once again for Canada. Where his family made sure after his death let his body decompose before burial so it would never be used for scientific reasons agian. The worst part of this says nothing of the sacrifice of the patient, or how this lead to new patient rights, but the fact that in the program I was watching this story on, based on real events, a scientist speaking on the show states, having tried unsuccessfully to close the fistula, it would have been practically unethical not to use this opportunity for research. Working in research myself I've found when dealing with others, thier aggrement in the experiment is necessary for good data, and realisticly we can never know how hard the good Dr. tried to close the hole, as even then he saw a window into digestion. As a point of reference it is not uncommon to create these fistulas in cows today so that farmers can take stomach samples of the food to determine what thier digesting to better formulate the cattles feed. I guess if it's not wrong to look inside a hole in a human why would it be an issue to install a porthole into a cows stomach, what a world.

Avalon chapter Six

Throughout the darkness small flashes of light glimmer and twist, colors blending and spiraling, interweaving, as voices unheard by any ear spoke, minds more ancient than time itself spoke, minds, memories, thoughts, and emotions, alien in ways undreamt of by man.

"decision is needed, a course decided, we know to little", snippets of sentience waltzed through the shadows. "quorum, yes, quorum is needed, we shall decide", voices continue to come together, coalescing into a singular voice of such infinite power. Out of the shadows, colors, scintillating auroras flooded the room. If you could call it a room, the space was so immense, a capital class cruiser could fit, with an armada with it.

Particles began to move, spin and shift, morphing, and turning, twisting, forming and reforming, until the shadow of something began to form, in the center of the vast expanse of the chamber, as shadow became substance, any mind from old terra would know what they saw, an immense circle of crystalline prisms, each like a doorway, surrounding a center "stone", with an object floating above it. A construct fashioned of prisms, each gateway forming a Liminal threshold with ghostly floating imagery within of another time, or places. Images changing and flickering, within of worlds long gone, or yet to be.

Around the central dais a circle of incandescent lights, inside each a cloaked and cowled figures with mirrored curving masks concealing where a face might be, though these beings of incalculable age had long ago left the world where the need for bodies or forms were needed, energy, mind, all they needed, they of the entelechy, a word from a world long dead, meaning the realization of potential, the perfection in form, yet a word still with all it's limitations. The sleepers had long ago moved beyond words or language, knowing to awake and presume emergence, they must partake of a name, though binding themselves to a word seemed barbaric and low, still thier choice to enter the living sleep to await sentience breaching its self imposed liminality and chose awareness, this they believed had occurred, if true, thier time of awakening, emergence, and companionship had arrived.

First they must know, and this ones mind, her self was exceptional, though she did not yet realize her potential, she would, and in her ascension towards entelechy she would tell them of her world, and whether the time had come for within the concilliam some wished to continue the long sleep, minds traveling the edges of time and space while others, wished to heed the watchers, and wake and fulfill the legacy. The founders had left a legacy to the scions, was now the time? All of the enrobed minds looked towards the ever changing object above the dais, it's fractal patterns, and higher dimensions, folding and changing, ever shifting colors and shapes, angles, and curves folding and interweaving, the vinculum pulsed and glowed, flashed and twisted, never fixed, ever evolving, changing as the meta-concert of minds contained within.

Selves enfleshed for the first time in aeons, allowed thought to coalesce again. The many-as-one spoke in thoughts intertwined. "awake, yes, the interrogation, revealing, her minds fragile, no, stronger than she knows, yes, but we press to hard, the captain, yes, the captain, what happened, irrelevant, the verse, yes, yes, the verse, this we need, move forward, learn her world her crew, yes, tell us much, yes, but the secret, NO, always you and knowing, yes, knowledge, irrelevant, yes, yes, yes irrelevant, continue, learn from her, gentle, be gentle, she will show us, we must know, emergence, companionship, is it time, she is our voice, ambassador, yes, yes, duty, job, life-calling, agreement, agreed, agreed, agreed......agreed....", the voices slowly quitted, the last word nearly silent, an echo, of an echo not quite in agreement but only one paying the closest of attention would have felt the slow dissent, or noticed the strange pulse in the vinculum, unseen in aeons.

So long as one mind, now separated, it went unnoticed.

Food poisoning

No fun sorry for my my absence I am really really sick and hopefully I will be better over the next few days I'll try to post a little bit but I make no promises sorry I'm just really sick hope to talk to you soon take care, for you Avalon readers out there I plan on putting out chapter 6 as soon as I get over this I just need to reread it. I've had a lot of proofreading errors that need to be corrected and my proofreader says there's some problems with the middle that I should look at, after my own recheck I may just put it up and hope you get what I'm going for thanks a lot take care

Intense Saturation Coverage

Do not start the news with sirens,
do not show pictures of the killer,
do not start off with a body count,
do not make the killer a anti-hero,
make the story as boring as possible, outside the immediate community.

These are the words, from memory, not a quote by a forensic psychologist explaining how we are making these people take the next step from loner to killer. Why is it police can only do something after your dead, after you've killed yourself, others? There are usually huge warning signs and red flags if people cared to stop and look. We're so used to leaving the letter on the ground rather than picking it up and putting it in the mailbox, and increasingly if no ones looking, more of us are willing to take the letter completely,
to me it seems this goes to the heart of society, and the social contract. To often I believe we have started feeling as if the contract isn't protecting me why should I be the only one following it?

Candle which burns twice as strong

Burns half as long, interesting concept, similar to the unexamined life is not worth living. But is it true. Life is to short, and the reality is it could be gone, we do need to live each day like it might be our last, and love and appreciate those in our lives. Yet there are consequences to that lifestyle, which can compromise relationships, jobs, almost anything if value. Yet value itself is an arbitrary thing, some place a higher price, where to another it's toxic. Speaking from personal experience, I've left a lot of pain in my past, even after the last decade plus, many don't trust, or can't forgive what has even done, and I hold no blame to them, it was my actions which created the situation in the first place. The thing is in reality leapirds can change there spots, abused victims are not condemned to be abusers, once you've recognized the issue and take the appropriate steps, put in the necessary work, you can change. It takes time, energy, effort, and the absolute desire to not go back to where you came from. But as long as you always remember and remind yourself you know where that road goes it's not hard to avoid it. Ok maybe not hard isn't te right choice of words, but you don't have to eep making the same mistakes. Honestly once you've started fixing the damage in yourself, you despise who you were as much as anyone, and the pain you caused sits like a dagger in your spine, but you have to move on. Anyway I may update this in the future, but for now I'm leaving it here, this topic stirs up a lot of painful memories, so until the next meeting be well.

Anime channel, sci fi channel where are you?

Providers need to learn there are built in audiences, there are so many old and we anime movies and series, great sci fi shows, where we once had music television it's now reality tv, so they created mtv2 back to the beggining, now it's more reality shows, we don't have music tv anymore, and syfy is hardly that anymore its basicly cheap reality paranormal ghost hunting drek, I wants my science fiction, and sorry eureka is not science fiction, it's normal people placed in extraordinary circumstances. And honestly I haven't seen warehouse 13, I saw that at the end of Raiders of the lost Ark. Why do I have to go to other networks to get my sci-fi when sci-fi channel doesn't bother to have it's own titular content. Now that's not to say I am not glad that we have chiller a network based on horror movies and or shows, and I'm happy that we have something like logo it's a long time coming that the LGBT community has its own network, but why is it that I can't have my anime or my sci-fi?

The cloud my personal drive

In this day and age, why buy disks at all, if I can buy a whole series on iTunes, watch it, then delete it, and re-download it when I want it agian? I can buy Farscape, or Babylon 5 in HD, watch it on my tv, from my iPad or iPhone, then delete it, then download a new series, and not have to worry about scratched disks, or new media formats. Instead if rebuying my whole collection, which I have done over and over again from laser disk, to Betamax, to VHS, to DVD, and now Blu-ray. Why would I do that when I can just buy it on the cloud in iTunes and watch it, delete it and then watch it again after I've downloaded it. It's mine? Between Netflix, which I'll admit needs to keep something up after they've put it there, I'm paying for a video on demand, you give me every season of star trek, every season of star gate, I know I'll get part way through a series and bam it will be gone, yeah if I start at TOS, I might even make it to DS9 if I'm lucky and watch tv every moment of every day, but like most people I have work, school, research, Ect. Plus how much star trek can you watch before you need a break, not to make light but I don't want to be the guy who is found dead from an embolism after watching 180 hours of star trek with out moving, which still wouldn't get me through, TOS, next gen, DS9, voyager, and enterprise. Come on Trekkies out there what series am I missing? I know I couldn't have got them all, and doing gene Roddenberry why not get earth final conflict, and andromeda, for that matter NETFLIX, why don't you get some little known series like mercy point, or threshold, which had Brent Spiner from data fame in it? Netflix, I implore you don't just try to recreate old series and reboot them, bring us back rare and wonderful gems, if there so little known they can't be expensive, and can acquire a whole new generation of fans, as well as fans that should have been. MERCY POINT, ER IN SPACE, GIVE IT A CHANCE!

Lindenburg American hero or nazi?

This came as a new one for me, I've grown up hearing about the spirit of saint Louise, his transatlantic flight, Ect. Even the missing kid shows up occasionally, what I've never been taught that he was into eugenics, and had nearly moved to naziberlin believing in the weak should've food for the strong. It was interesting seeing his glass heart, but realizing he had used his fame to keep America out of world war 2 believing in the nazi übermensch was never taught in school. Why do we hide the dark secrets about our heroes, and only focus on the good, what do we learn? It's sad to see it took his firsthand eye witness of post nazi Germany, to understand the terrible price paid by that fashion of thinking, it seems to prove power corrupts, because in the beggining as long as he was classed as the strong and intelligent he was good with eugenics. Now the catch is is thier anything wrong with improving the human body? As long as we still believe in equality, understanding that a persons gifts are different not making them better, am I better than the person who can speak multiple languages, or play music, no, there not better than me either, my skills are elsewhere, and the idea that those physically challenged are less, is insane, I'm disabled, and am insufferably bright, Stephen hawking is very bright, how would he be treated in a eugenics world?

Twitter, Facebook, google, joining the future

Im new to this world of inter-communications, information I understand, I've been using the web since diap-up BBS's, how many of you know what those are, back then we only dreamed of the web as it is today. Information you could never have dreamed of, from books translated from other countries, talking to people on the other side of the planet instantaneously when only 20 30 40 years ago it would've taken days for something like that to happen. Technology is changing so fast now, the computers can't keep up with the information changes, I think I adapt pretty easy, yet this technology, and it's capacity for abuse, I find a bit frightening.

Gloomy Sunday the song that kills

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WBZwLkvpFI&sns=em This song has a sad past, which during its time lead to a series of at least 18 suicides, many versions are available on you tube, it's a hungerian song from the depression era, strangely I expected to listen to it and have very little effect, and yet strangely I did have a weird feeling in my head it didn't make me want to commit suicide but it is creepy and very discomforting. It's negative tones, discordant keys, and minor chords it is quite disturbing.

Role-playing, S.C.A, and reenactors

Don't expect this one anytime soon it's going to end up being kind of complicated but I want to look into role players, what's come to be called LARP'ing, the Society for creative anachronism and reenactors in general. This subject is so vast in its array of options, from people who dress up and play dungeons and dragons, or live action role play as vampires or other creatures, cos-play- dressing up as your favorite anime or manga characters, SCA, who recreate medieval times to the point of learning ancient skills, ren fair time tourists, comic and sci-fi cons, reenactors reliving civil war or roman battles, even those who dress up in furry costumes or as plush toys. Why? It must be more than just a hobby, or an interest in a time period, more than simply becoming your favorite character, so why? This has always been of interest to me, having been made fun if wearing a gi, why is this exceptable? Or us it? Believe me there will be an update and I'd love comments on this, if you or someone you know does these things.

Kindle the walking library leads me to drink

I love my kindle, the ability to carry around and read all my school books, my pdf's, even graphic novels like the watchmen is incredible. The fact that several bookshelves of books now fit in my phone or iPad, ready for me on the cloud, the fact that my popsci magazines, and nat geo's are right there ready to be watched, is simply amazing, and when I'm done, I can delete them, saved safely on the cloud, which is in itself a whole other blog. Now is thier room for improvement yes I'm sure, the comic viewer is really stiff, no where near as cool as the comixology systems, used by marvel, and others. But kindle adding the google wiki features is great, I love being able to read a book, google a location, read its history, then jump back into the story. Really I was reading Dracula the other day and he's describing where his houses are, and right there I google the communities, pull up period maps, read abouth the history of the region, and jump back into the book. At one point johnny harker is drinking something called slivovitz, pop into google, learn about this wonderful plum brandy, jump to bevmo, place an order, and back to the story, really if this is where technology is going, I really look forward to the future. See you all there my bevmo order came in today, Absinth and slivovitz, I know I like Absinth, I'll let you know about the plum brandy. Until then...

Migraines the unholy

I don't know how many people out there have migraines, but they are in so many ways, just indescribable, honestly, people call it a headache, but
it's really so much more, if it's bad enough you just want to die, I once partially joked how a migraine felt like the hangover that finely killed you. From long years of suffering with these things I've learned there's little to be done but lay down somewhere dark, cool, and quite. Not easy where I love during the summer. Normally if I catch it early I can use meds and bio-feedback. Which means noticing little visual changes, and flashes of light. Mild nausea and a change in hearing and taste. Though you don't always get these cues, sometimes you just suddenly notice this pain behind an eye, which spreads until it engulfs the whole side of your brain. Soon you will be wanting to gouge your eye out to release the pressure. Now today I'm still suffering but the migraines gone,it was a bad night, and probably the next few days will be a joy, my senses will be painfully heightened, and anything from the wrong sound, light or temperature will bring it back with a vengeance. My week will be hidden away in a bedroom, but what amazes me is no one really knows what or why they occur. Neurological, biological, diet, even geology all seem to have some part in them. So like the flu or many cancers, there are so many poly variant potentials it all comes down to guess work, they just know in everyday function they are totally different from a stress headache, or cluster headache. I've talked to a lot of people over the years during treatment, they didn't even know i had migraines until '92 when I had a double migraine, a rare phenomenon, and I was trying to gouge my eyes out, I needed to be strapped down. So far now I'll leave you with these thoughts.

Druids, what were they?

Existing from ancient Gaul, modern spain, and Portugal, to Ireland, Scotland, and the rest of the UK. Much of what we know come from there destroyers, Ceaser and roman historians, a few more reliable texts from Greece. Modern wiccans seem to have placed some claim to them, when we see they were so much more. They were doctors, judges, story tellers, and among other things priests. Many spoke Greek, and were educated in astronomy, herbology, and the natural sciences. Looking at some of thier artifacts people were confused trying to understand what these odd metal devices were. Then a doctor noticed many of the tools could be exchanged for the tools in any modern surgery, so like ancient Egyptians and mayans they were adept at biology and surgery. On a semi-related subject, the frozen ice-man had blue tattoos of dots in strange places, they found those exact spots where acupuncture spots, for medical problems, which the iceman suffered from based on x-rays, and MRI's. Where did all this advanced knowledge come from? Just something to think about.

True Blood and the stories they came from

True blood, great series, better books, like most like this. I have loved each book, and devour each new one the day it comes out, literally, I forget to eat. I'll give you my thoughts on this season after is over, this post is centering on the differences. In the beggining they were basicly the same, one book, one season. Then suddenly last season total separation, which honestly I wish they would have explained, why deviate from something already working? Why fix it if it's working incredibly well. the problem is there where things I was really looking forward to seeing, thier not only not there, but can't happen now, so I'll never see them. It's Similer to Harry potter book four, goblet of fire, my favorite book. I wondered how they were going to show some scenes. In the end that was the least of my problems, they screwed that movie so bad, I will wonder forever how the actors played thier roles, without complaint. Father so many movies didn't they realize they were acting out of character? I could do a whole post, maybe I will based on my issues with that movie specifically. It was a tragedy. I'm not saying true blood the show is a tragedy, I'm only saying you need to switch your thinking and enjoy series and books as separate animals. In fact I think I might work on a post for tommorow thinking about book to movie translations.

Comments update

Just for your understanding, I've removed all the comment security to make it easier to comment, and since started getting either bots, or people leaving links to thier sites, I'm not a commercial website, so if you'd like to comment, and I wish you would, thank you, if your sharing a legitimate link, thank you, but if I think your a bot, or your link leads to a site not relevant to our goals here, such as escorts, and security companies I apologetically will delete them. Thank you for your readership, I've tried to make commenting easier for discussion, hope to talk to you soon, be well

Absinthe dreams of blood tipped white roses falling

My first attempt at fantasy poetry be kind.... It's to late for some to pass through the fire failing to feel the flame. Yet faith filled the devout shall walk the path and feel no pain. Consumed into brazen ash those so filled with fear-undoing all which should remain. And that which stands still strong with the passing of the azure fire shall prevail against all which yet remains of the twisted remnants of darkened putrid sires. Twisting in torrential flames as judgment shall prevail and those faithless cowards pass through mirrored halls of doomed spirits walking forever in a livng dark carnival of our fleshy, bloody labyrinth of the soul, lost, desolate and all undone-trapped by there own vile selfishness, they find themselves forced to watch as all they ever loved is lost, washed away by eternal tides of fate til nothing yet remains but there tattered dreams of the faded past and sad pathetic glories lost.   Sanguine tides rise above the lies of those fool enough to wake the slavering beast, padding on silent feet through the night, scenting its sickly prey, which only to late shall realize the doom which they have wrought, the final cost, a price paid in blood and dreams, rent and torn, till no more shall remain. Oh torment, oh torments of thou obsessed damned will be just the start of the path upon which they have begun but words be words and words alone harm none, but thought oh thought shall be the coin with which they pay the price for there transgressions agianst those of the blood and faith.  What is rest but all that they have wrought, the dreaming of the soul which flies free upon the wings of  penumbral night is lost, while the eternal cost of those whose wrongs shall be made right remain tattooed upon there tainted breast, health a frail and useless thing of flesh, nothing of use upon this trail of punishment which must be paid and those who've wronged those of the blood shall feel the Wrath of dragons breath leaving only the stain of there dire deeds, the stain which they have sought, a mark burned forever unto the earth. Where nothing clean shall grow again.  The eye which sees the demons deed and chooses not to pass that way with fear upon his heart shall find they have chosen to bear a cross upon there heart leaving only shadows of empty souls filling that place where seeds of dreams once born, no chance now for life or growth.  Just still life pictures of the blank minds will show the remains of darkened forests, mired in swamps of maimed souls, screams of a torn and sundered throat, lost amongst a haunting dream of the pain of a thousand years, twas a bloody moon rising over twilight touched sands, themselves remains of once mighty mountains lost over epochs of time, as water rising untouched in it's antediluvian tide to find praxis the only true design for apotheosis fails to fall upon the shadow of those whose desire to rule there betters find there steps dogged by the hounds of hell ending only in that final line of the sad demise of those who could have been so much more. Seeing only to late to come AGIANST those of the blood cannot stand and face such as I, for we have dreamed of far off worlds from before the fall. Our thoughts the seeds of wonder phantasmagoric memories of aeos past, planted upon the soil of time and space to bloom and blossom into a thousand dreaming worlds of wonders and phantasmagoric miracles. Flying upon dragon back over opalescent cities of our island world, crystal towers rising up into the clouds. Sun glinting upon iridescent scintilating scales, all seeing cerrulian reptile eyes sees those twisted ones who seek to ravish the chosen of the blood, die upon bloody claw and fang hearing only the thunder blast of wings swept up in spiral flight before life is shed, soul torn from flesh to serve eternal the sons and daughters of the dreaming city, minds flying free from immortal flesh, to watch the birth of this young world.

Avalon update chapters 6-7

For you Avalon readers out there I'm working on chapter six, our first real view of the aliens, I'm having trouble with it, but it's coming along, and then I figured maybe it's time we look back at the crew, so seven we revisit the ship, but eight... well, by then poor Jandi must pass through the darkness to the light beyond, if she survives!

Peceptional blindness huh what was where?

http://www.google.com/search?aq=1&oq=perceptual+b&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8&q=perceptual+blindness ~ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inattentional_blindness ~ http://blogs.howstuffworks.com/2009/12/16/how-perceptual-blindness-works-humans-sometimes-completely-ignore-things-that-are-in-plain-sight-try-the-test/ ~ I hope some of these work, these go back to my post on perception and reality invisible right in front of us. I think we've all made similar mistakes like this over looking for car keys while there on the table right in front of us or my personal favorite looking for my glasses and they're sitting on the top of my head. Our vision and are hearing are severely impaired even at the best of times the range of our hearing and our eyesight are limited to very thin areas of the spectrum. Much of reality is completely outside of our perception. And then depending on our chemical and hormonal states what's going on in our brain what were thinking about can all lead to something we've all experienced, call tunnel vision. We're so caught up in what we're doing that we don't realize what's going on all around us. A similar physiological phenomenon occurs when we are in a flight or fight situation where adrenaline and other hormones are pumping through our system causing us to go into a very narrow focus field of vision and hearing. Another similar situation is the fact that our memory is taking in much more information our senses are taking in much more information than we can consciously access and basically we're viewing the world through this videotape of photos put together by our brains and assembled differently at different times or frames of mind. When we are in a flight or fight instinct we are receiving enormous amounts of information to our senses but our memory selects only those that the mind decides are specifically important to that particular moment. That's why after a fight or a moment of high tense situation we find it so hard to remember clearly the events of what happened, very similar to being in a car accident when asked the history of the events that led up to the accident most times we find it very difficult to recall clearly exactly what happened. one of the strange phenomenon that goes along with this is the perceptual appearance of time slowing down, time distorting because our Brain is attempting to compensate for the situation wherein and give us psychologically the best opportunity to make the best choices. I'll go more into relative perception on a later date.

Foldit changing the world

Game that's changing the world, I'll be updating this soon, but check out FolditGame, the games, allowing gamers to effect real change possibly helping millions, like seti@home which gives users at home the chance to be a part of the SETI program, FolditGame allows users to solve puzzles which have alluded the actual scientists. I look forward to learning and sharing more about this.

UFO's what's up with that

Recently I've noticed some posts diffrent from my norm, and I'm really loath to even mention this, but in all honesty I've said I was going to be honest, after merpeople, Bigfoot, and all else, why not right?  I've seen what I can only say was a UFO, I had it on 8mm and have shown it to a few people, and wish I could find it today I'd love to put it up on you tube, but here's the story...one night I was out standing on the porch around may sometime, when I saw a really bright star, as I looked at it I noticed it was twinkling in a weird way, like red/blue flashes.  I figured it was a star or a Satellite, maybe a plane. But it didn't move, so I got my digital camera and tried to zoom in, I couldn't focus while zooming in, and holding the camera, so I found the tripod, and used the remote to focus in and zoom, suddenly out of the fog appears this amorphous cloud of changing colors, colors I can't give names too, colors I have never seen before or since.  I showed it to a friend who said it was just the aurora shining on a geosynchronous orbit, IDK, it was crazy. I'm not going to say I saw an alien craft or anything like that, but I will say I saw something. And I'll admit I still look up at the sky looking for the star that twinkles in multiple colors, because I'd like another shot to record it with my new digital camera, or my very expensive telescope. I'd like to see those colors agian, watching it for almost an hour before it disappeared wasn't enough.

Avalon chapter 5

Sensation seemed to open up before her, within the minds sensorium blossoming, even as she struggled to close her thoughts and memories as she'd been taught, a sense of well-being began immersing her like a warm bath. Knowing she was safe, she allowed her powerful minds barriers to lower, as a voice deep in the center of her thoughts screamed out that something wasn't right, yet the numbing softness rose up, suffusing her mental core, her resistance slowly faltered then simply crumbled.  Suddenly her life's memories began to flow, replaying before her with a clarity better than her own memory. Seeing details she had long forgotten or never known. Watching her childhood, projected, growing up in her governance embassy home, the glittering aurora dome, protecting them from an attack which would never come. Yet hiding the stars she loved and longed to see, denied forever, as the only daughter of a wealthy and powerful family rumored to have held power since the latter days of Old Terra, born on Prime, the capitol world she was being groomed for power.  Then the day of her testing, where they were so proud, scoring so far off the charts they sent her to a special Psion school, joy at the new freedoms, and friendships found at the Academia, where they excepted her for who she was, not as Jandira, daughter of  Xylus and Jendra Ferris, until the day... The point when everything went so terribly wrong in a singular instant. That moment when everything in her privileged life was ruined. The tainted revelation she could tap into others private "peer to peer" thoughts confused her, that was impossible, but hearing her friends conversation in thier psychic gestalt, savaged her, tearing her mind and spirit, flaying her thoughts with its truth to the point of near mental dissolution. Always so proud, so respected, receiving the best of everything, eugenic processing, training, clothes, anything she'd ever wanted. She, the pride of the school, beautiful, wealthy, and influential, in truth reviled by everyone. Her best friends seeing her as just a spoiled rich girl, getting the best because of her parents name, influence, and money.  How could those she'd loved and trusted believe she was just an incredibly stupid, air headed dilettante?  Fleeing the school, as much as herself her mind reeling, rent and torn by the revelations her mind could not shut out, only to be tracked down by HOUNDS sent by her parents, psi's trained to hunt rouge meta's, the shame and humiliation growing. Being dragged back, and forced to expose her inner mind to her families meta-concerted probe. Their discovery of her secret, then banishment, sending her away for her "protection and safety". Exiled to Atlantis 12, the furthest post from the core, at the edge of the rim, she was commissioned as an ambassador. On paper the liaison between rim and core worlds, while acting representative to other races and cultures from the outer regions and the Imperium.  Working on a station where few brains lived, above a world who had no genetic capacity for psionics, leaving her mind her own. Until the day she met a captain looking to hire an ambassador for her crew. She could travel the stars, a job normally illegal for true people of her skill, power and rank because of it's intrinsic dangers. Finely her true dreams of exploring the endless mysteries of space would be realized, as a crew member of the Avalon she found she had little to fear from her psi ability, most of the crew were from worlds without true people, so only the captain and the ship posed a problem, and in the end it was almost a relief to connect to them, neither held any preconceptions or passed judgments, and the captain had her own situation to deal with, well similar but so different, what had happened to make the captain resign, when she had commanded the flag ship of the Imperium, what happened out in the rim to change her so much?  NO! NO! NO! This was wrong, something was terribly, horridly wrong, as thoughts of the captain broke through the sopoforic effects, she would not betray the captain, as waves of despair rose up to engulf her, all her secrets shown, shame at her weakness, powerlessness, unforgivable guilt, irrepressible rage overwhelmed her, as blackness rose up to silence her splintering mind. Quietude all that remained.

Batutu, yeti, big foot,

Just a few names, I've always heard in every myth thier is a seed of truth, and I'm using occums razor here, the simplest answer is usually the right one, so my thought is, with every culture, around the world. How can so many people from so many places, for so long come with the same basic seed of a story? From the highest point on earth to the darkest forests, to the unending plains they all have stories of a big foot type creature, the differences occur in appearance, and nature. Some such as the genoskwa a native American creature which has been recently seen is violent and carnivorous while the standard off the shelf US big foot is vegan, shy and retiring, preferring out of focus cameras, to hide out in, ok I'm having my own joke, but really, I'm no cryptozoology expert, and I tend to avoid shows about these kinds of things, but when you see the list of these creatures you have to wonder what's up.

America, the modern Rome

Complete with a state religion, our thinking and beliefs that we are the peace keepers of the world pushing back the sinful world while turning a blind eye to the evils we commit in the process of pressing forward with our own agenda. We even build our cities via roman designs. The UK sought in its day to be the new Rome, then after its graceful decline, the US sought to take their place, and for a time they did, but we are not quite gracefully stepping back, and in failing to yield to the new world, we may loose the US. With technology, and the Internet which the UN being led by china and Russia are seeking to seize control of the Internet. Something that should belong to the world. Information, ergo the Internet should belong to all of humanity, and like housing, food, and medical aid, should be among the things which are inalienable human rights. I may be wrong but I believe had the founding fathers known about the Internet they would have made it a human right. To often were told this or that is a privilege not a right, if you actually read what our founding fathers have left to us, no small amount of writings, they believed in the education of the people. An educated people are a strong people. Feudal lords desisted the printing press, and many sought to control them. Once they became cheap enough for anyone to print information, the world changed. In the apogee of the information age the Internet is being threatened. Even Rome educated thier slaves. We in the US have the right of free speech, if control is handed over to the UN what will we do when they end that? Nothing because we won't have a choice. The UN has shown over and over in rowanda, in Bosnia, even in its failure to uphold the anti-whaling laws that it chooses not to act. So do we want them in charge of our free speech? Guess maybe Orwell was right all the time, and like the Jews in Germany, by the time stands up and says no more, or worse help me, who will be there to reach out a hand?

Thank you, Russia

You readers beat out the US readers today, hope you enjoyed the posts.

The Mountain ch 1

Winds blowing through the night sky, darkness pressing in, starlight brilliantly lighting the world in ways unseen since the dawn of electricity. Now only found at the highest points of the world.

The cold an ever present reminder, that they where above the vertical limit, where the environment itself was inhospitable to human life. Moments like this when the winds screamed with demonic voices, filled with such power, he could feel joy at being alive. No place in his mind for kids, or jobs. Work, family, friends, all the dramatics and frustrations of home washed away in a moment, where a single thought could kill you. He missed them, but if he didn't get away, well he might just kill himself.

Trey had grown up in the wilderness, mountain climbing, diving, sailing, cross country skiing. In fact that was his greatest love, well he loved his family but the kids were either to young or to old to appreciate hanging with the old man off the side of a mountain, and Rebecca was his heart, but after the kids she'd settled into being mom, and stopped being his beloved rebel.

So now it was just him and the Pride, his group of wilderness buddies, who like him needed a break from civilization, or were still single, and thrived on wildness. This trip was once in a lifetime. Reb really didn't want him to go, but he always took off a month a year as his time. Sometimes the older kids would come, but dating was becoming more important, they grew up so fast. And the family had started to take this time as mommy and me, so he was glad to get away, cross-country skiing out into the Tibetan wastes, hiking in, then climbing K2.

The Pride had climbed quite a few of the killer mountains, but this was to great, packing in the gear they needed, cross country, then going for the summit, what an experience. Somewhere things started to go wrong. The sat phone had started to get frizzy, as well as much of their other technology.

Of course that meant if a problem arose, they were on their own. The tech thing didn't bother him much, they'd get it solved, but Erik was going crazy. Being the gear head that's to be expected, and he'd climbed with him enough to know he'd figure the shit out, and things would be fine. What had begun to worry him was Erin's behavior. She was harder than the mountain they were climbing, and could be just as cold, but she'd started fantasizing something was following them. Trying to stop, or kill them.

At first he and Don, the team medic, had figured altitude sickness, but she had no other noticeable effects. Their watches, which kept track of all sorts of biophysical information hadn't alerted them to anything, and they were being paid a fortune to test the damn things. Of course they were Erik and Don's love child, he could care less really. Though it was pretty cool how they were connected to a device the size of an iPhone which stored all the data, and transferred all the information to a tablet, Don had. Each night it was supposed to connect to the sat phone and upload all the days data. Knowing they were all connected in some weird wireless way kinda reminded him of the force, but hell, what did he know.

Really Erik made a living writing programs for some kind of virtual world using motion capture suits. Actually his climbing gear looked odd because he was recording all of his motions somehow, so he could turn this into a game when he got home, hysterical really, like any game could capture what they went through out here. He could imagine his kids at home playing in the Suite, the series of virtual worlds that was all the rage, and thought it was nothing like being here.

They were all sleeping in the bio-tents, made out of some new technology, Erik tried explaining it to him, about custom atoms, and tiny bots or nanny bots. Whatever he'd use there gear, take their money and enjoy leading the climb. Guess it was a good thing he could hunt, trap, forage, and cook. Those micronutrient bars were nearly worthless, a man needed more than a bar to stay alive, well ok if you call that living.

Don rolled over in his sleep, and Erik was snoring again. God, he lived for this. A shrill piercing scream punched through the wind startling him, as Erin sat up, wild eyed, "it's out there", she said.

Chapter five nearly done

I hope you enjoy it as much as I have, it as a lot of fun writing, I hope you don't find it to expositional, but what better way to introduce you to our not so fearless crew than through the alien mind, whose curiosity about the crew, thier first contact, and with our world, thier first image brought by our slightly disfunctional crew. I'm proof reading it now, adding som bits, removing a few for later, polishing it a bit, and trying to rewrite pieces more concisely, saying the same thing or more with fewer words. I should be done and have it up no later than wednesday, so if your enjoying the Avalon stories check in Tuesday and or Wednesday to find chapter five, we'll both find out what happens in the following chapters at the same time, I really have no idea what's going to happen next.

Sex Blogs, huh?

I understand a lot of the themed blogs, if your interested in politics or travel or video games, you have a meeting place for like minded people to discourse over the thoughts of someone who enjoyes what you do. You like mustangs, so you read a mustang blog, you can talk and share knowledge, experience, ask questions with people who share your passion. Then we come to sex blogs. Does anyone care what someone does in bed, or thier rankings on the people they've slept with? Maybe I'm old fashioned, but this takes kissing and telling to a whole new level. It seemed in class that men who did it were viewed very much as piggish, but the woman were strong proud feminists, brave was a word I heard often. Once upon a time woman would have been called slutty, and the men would be lauded. I would never have seen these references arise in this day and age, yes men are still piggish at times, and often use any means to get what they want, but are outraged, violent, and extremely abusive if a guy or transgender persons behaves in a Similer fashion, and a woman who uses men for sex are still sluts, (agian not my belief, the trending consensus by people), yet in blogging the behavior agian becomes feminist. I'm sure woman will say this is the hypocritical standard they've lived with forever. So why do people read sex blogs, for knowledge, as gossip, titillation? I don't know, and some how I'm not sure this class will have an answer, and maybe that's one thing were supposed to be taking from this. I will say, guys as long as your saying and playing at being the person you desire wants from you, until you get what your after, if you get played by anyone irrespective of gender, I say don't hate the player, hate the game.

Themed Blogs

Politics, science, technology, games, gaming, movies, cloths.... The list goes on, I admit my blog is a journal, based on what's going on in life, and what I think. Listening to my classmates as we share the differing topics we've chosen to write about, I'm the only one who chose a journal, and hearing the comments they've gotten, the discussions and violent arguments that have occurred, they do seem to have more readers than I do, and certainly more feedback, but I seem to have the widest range of countries reading. I can't help wondering what the reality of this mean. What does that say, is it the topic they've chosen, the number of thier friends and family, I've relied on social media and word of mouth, other than my mother and wife, a few friends on Facebook, I'm pretty sure your not anyone I know, though I hope you've come to know me somewhat. And think fondly of me if nothing else. Reading some of my thoughts over the last month I could be seen as a crank of sorts, I'm not, really I'm just curious and think about everything, I desire the truth like air. And imagination is the oldest form of learning. Knowledge, or Gnosis is basicly information coming from a higher mystic source, inspiration literally translates to breathed into by god, in-spirit-respiration to breath in the spirit, basicly anyway. So in summation why do themed blogs do so well, simply because they have a built in audience? Or is it more, something deeper? In a day we rarely know our neighbors, we've found a group who shares our own likes. Or dislikes? If that is the case, how does that relate to my chosen theme, and you my readers, are we pseudo-friends because you know more about me than many of my closest friends and family, I do not open myself to many, but it's a necessary part of the process I've enjoyed, hopefully you have to. Well until the next thought, be well

Quantum Jumping, new age scam?

I'am not unfamiliar with many of the new age techniques that have been floating around since its inception. As a past occultist I find many of the methods used by the new age movement as far older, having been a part of eastern religions, and occultists, as well as many Judeo-Christian religions. I know its not popular with many but cabala is a jewish magick nearly all forms of occult study is based on. Ancient jewish magick, adopted and altered by Christians, gnostics, medieval occultists, and in many ways the base, however redesigned of modern occult styles. The only new system of majick is chaos magick, which is based on many things, but this will be talked about in another post, because it is interesting, to me anyway. Many people would find it strange that meditation reincarnation were once part of the Christian faith, but careful research will show it clearly. Magick is not the topic, nor Wicca, nor even new age methodology, purely. Meditation, visualization and similar methods of mental technology have been used to meet, and explore the mental and spiritual realms. I thought I had seen it all, yet a new name, anyway has appeared floating around the web. Now i'm not going to say positive affirmations, and visualizations can't be a helpful method for an assortment of things, but quantum jumping is based on the multiple worlds theory of physics. positing that for every decision made a new world comes into existence where another you does something else. Quantum jumping states you can send your mind out into these other worlds, meet these other you's and learn from them, and acquire thier skills. You visualize a doorway leading to a world where your a rock-star, a great public speaker, a painter, whatever. Passing through the door you visualize yourself in this new world, calling this other self to you, then speak and learn from these other yous. Even merging your energies gaining thier skills, memories, Ect. This is stored in your sub-conscious where you can tap into it. There are a lot of people who swear by this, a small few call it a scam. I have used visualizations many times even as a catholic, on the scenes of the cross, and had profound experiences. Could I have merged energies and become Christ, well yes according to some jumpers. You can visualize not only other selves, but angels, and spirit guides, animal totems, even gods and saints. All based on your spiritual leanings. I'm just beginning my research into this, so I will be updating this, but I'm interested in others thoughts.